March 5th, 2010

crush

sigh...

is there even a point to trust anybody? I mean I'm not so paranoid that I'm thinking that everyone's out to get me... infact I'm pretty sure no one even cares that much...

no, but my past has led me to think that no one cares about how I feel about certain things... you know... sometimes it's common courtesy to keep others in your mind and how certain actions may affect others.
no, this isn't about one specific person in my life (but it may as well be, since I was really never given any real proof that I can fully place my trust with that person).
it's really about how inconsiderate people are in general...

I mean, seriously... most of us are in situations where we are in friendships, relationships, and some are married, and they don't understand what they have or can ever learn to appreciate it...

I for one feel constantly under-appreciated. and I know that others feel that same way. you do so much work for others and you wonder if it's even worth it... maybe I shouldn't be doing anything at all if I'm having doubts like that...

every person affects another person one way or another... sometimes you have to take in account in how you want to be remembered...

Joey... ended up on tool academy... and lasted only 2 episodes (yeah, it took the fidelity challenge to get him kicked off)
scott... the most hated person in florida and colorado...
dan... level headed and business-like, and possibly the least craziest person I know...
austin... craziest and angriest person I've ever met... but cuddly when he wants to be...
carlos... quite possibly going to rule the world...
anthony... best big brother I've ever had... even though we're not related...
ramon... best body guard, and kindest heart I've seen in a person...
The Eldeen Johnson's crew... nerds with tough exteriors but squishy warm insides...
most of the women in my life... crazy (some crazier than others, but my closest female friends are the ones with the biggest and warmest hearts)... except for jackie... she's really level headed and kind for a woman....
there are so many people in my life that has helped shape who I am today (my parents doing most of the building for my childhood)

so... the question you gotta ask yourself now...

How do you want to be remembered?